time waits for no man memories fade... limbs go weary... still i run the race the race to be with you... my Savior and my Lord
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Monday, January 23, 2006
11:38 PM
no intention or topic in mind as i write this...i'm gg to exhibit the smoking skills that i've attained thru the course of my studies in SMU. What is life? is it, as Shakespeare so plainly put it, a play, where each person gets his or her few moments on the stage and then, is no more? that sounds rather fatalistic and, truth be told, this is e view that one wld normally perceive from any Christian using the "excuse" of "it's God's Will" to explain away any misfortune or tragedy that had occured. But is it really so? are we so powerless to alter or shape our destiny, are we like lemmings, only moving because of the whims of a higher being, merely performing someone else's will till e time when we are no more? A professor of mine had once said that humans are all illogical beings; since ALL of us are gg to die, why are most of us afraid of death? As the saying aptly goes, there is nothing to fear but fear itself. This saying's aptness, in this context, highlights my point that, despite its utter logical meaninglessness, such a dumb illogical statement can be still be so widely used. More illogical even, is how ppl are ever striving to be rich, to be famous, to have more power, all the while in the process of dying and reaching the point where they will lose it all anyways. Perhaps, as many people have probably thought, this is where religion comes in the fill in this illogical loophole in the equation of life. Indeed, believing in an afterlife, in a higher being, certainly provides some manner of a incentive to lead a clean, moral life of excellence. Now, when it comes to viewing the world in terms of religion, i perceive 3 distinct and mutually exclusive groups of ppl: the pious, the free-thinkers and the atheists. From my own experience, most of the atheists i've known are a rather firm believer in altruism; believing that they can be gd without any form of compensation or reward, therein exhibiting true goodness or righteousness. Looking at that notion within the confines of our human moral code, that wld certainly hold true. Although, logically, this accomplishes nothing and the added burden of striving harder to do e right thing while not getting any reward seems rather pointless and unsustainable. In fact, i wld challenge this notion because i wld think that ppl with such a perception wld probably view their good deeds as counting for a lot more than their misdeeds. Their premise wld probably that since everyone does bad things, therefore i am not worse off. But since not every does gd things, and i actually do something gd, so therefore i'm a better person. In essence, they are their own god. Religiously, i can only speak from a Christian viewpoint, and it is perhaps the fundamental belief that a single sin, no matter how big or small, is sufficient to condemn one to hell, is e major turn-off to most atheists ever converting to Christianity. The notion of salvation thru grace and not works have probably been a stumbling block for all ppl, Christians and non-believers alike. I find myself sharing an atheist mentality whenever i am spiritually unfocused. I'm no psychologist but i think perhaps, for me at least, the atheist mentality is something that one wld function on by default. Perhaps it is even more prevalent amongst the male species, since pride is way up there in our list of major stumbling blocks, along with lust. Going back to the logic of life, it would of course be argued that if there was no God, the godless ppl of the earth wld be the wisest of us all, since they have endeavoured to satisfy their mortal desires as much as possible before their passing. Yet, at the very end, we all do pass away. Whatever we've done, felt, or experienced, goes with it too. Perhaps the notion of reincarnation wld allow some ppl to find some closure regarding such an issue, although reincarnation in itself is a circular argument and therefore, a fallacy. At this point, Simon is feeling rather tired and would like to go to bed, but it wld be quite irresponsible to end it on this note. So here's my take on life: You only have one life. Life is short. If you are gg to live your life, decide on how you want to lead your life and whats the ultimate goal and purpose of your life. Life without purpose is ultimately, well, meaningless. I would think that only animals shd live a life with a self-conscious purpose. Once you've decided on your purpose in life, focus everything u do according to that purpose. So if you want to live a godless life, please do take all e booze, drugs and other intoxicants that you can that can make u feel good. Have all e sex and satisfy ur carnal desires in every which way imaginable. And most importantly, remember not to repent, nor to care abt other ppl, or seek to be productive to society since it will be gg against ur purpose in life. As for those who wish to lead Christian lives, please live a life as if God is (and He IS!) watching you all the time. Please refrain from leading your brothers and sisters to sin by behaving in a worldly manner, especially in church. And please do go beyond your comfort level to shining examples to them by taking care not to end up treating the church as a social lounge. Seems like i've made myself a hypocrite by saying all these. But it never hurts to hold oneself to a higher standard. Puts one back in persepective. That we are all weak and need His help to change. What matters is our own desire to repent.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
10:16 PM
wow...it's really been quite some time since i've blogged! so much has happened in the past few months....maybe i start with my past week...
school's started already....2 weeks past already...this term's gonna be a bit tough..3 finance modules..dun play play...gotta focus much better than last term...be a good boy and do my readings...I'm enjoying my investment banking classes...ang ser keng really teaches e relevant stuff...unlike all e textbook-reciting profs i've had in my SMU life...he's really got me excited about joining the finance sector after i graduate...pity abt my overall academic results though...looks like i won't be able to get a decent headstart..gotta slog it out at the scum level for a long while to come =( ah well..nvm...i'm all prepared to commit most of my life to my work...e rest of the time with my BB..haha...work hard, earn enough to retire early..yup, that's my dream...
anyways, i went to Ministry of Sound this thursdays...it was a school bash event....just wanted to check out the place...heard it was cool..which it really was...they had different themed dance lounges for different music and different purposes...they had retro, house and r&b areas..but my favourite was this room call "Pure"...a totally white colored area with lotsa comfy cushions and sofas...bascially a lounge area...darn comfortable and cosy place to pose..haha..well...it was the first time i've been to a club in 2 or 3 years...got a good reminder why i really dun like clubbing at all...especially at school bashes...firstly, u always have the lame ass "entertainment" organised by the students...i know i'm being an idiot to not appreciate their efforts but i guess i've never been into the school spirit kina thing...hmmm...but ok lah...the hosts for this past bash were pretty good, although having a paegant during each bash just to satisfy the lusts of the ppl there will always seem awkward. i like being able to enjoy the music, however brain-numbing it is, and just thrash around to the beat like a fish out of the water...pity that e music that day was absolutely crap though..but when i went back, i'm reminded of how it was when i first went to such places during my jc days...the flirty glances and eye contact, teasing with ur body movements, ogling at the beautiful ppl. couple that with the intoxicating beverage readily available as well as the dark lighting and the effect grows even more powerful...i must say that the level of temptation to sin in such places is really darn high...it'd be really tough to maintain a life of Christian purity and still go to such places regularly... but what i really can't stand abt such places is the cigarette smell...it's just disgusting to inhale the second-hand smoke of these ppl who dun give a damn abt their own health.. my throat got really dry after i left e place...been quite sick yday and today also...must've gotten it from that place...looks like it'll be another 2-3 years before i even consider gg back to a club again? haha
ah..enough abt that...well...attended a YF meeting on friday...i must say that i was really encouraged by the effort and commitment put in by most of the ppl present in the meeting..Uncle John was really calm and collected in leading the discussions...Although he seems to act dumb alot, i've grown to respect Reuben for his input..really concise and to the point...but perhaps abit too blunt and aggressive at times though, but still, alot of potential there...he's someone who can really contribute alot to the YF...just need to remain grounded to the Word and avoid unsavory film and music influences eh? Really proud of Ezra and Peter, Peter for volunteering for a leadership position in the CG...he's told me several times that he wants to commit this year to being more involved in church work and serving God....that's always a fantastic aim to have...Ezra for making the firm commitment to leadership in a key committee as well as being able to voice mature and constructive comments durign the meeting. He's showing alot of commitment too...all at his relatively young age...will definitely try to help him out wherever i can... It's really heartening to see how the YF has grown and how the younger leaders have matured into their roles..they've bonded really well and i'm absolutely sure they can overcome all challenges as long as they depend on God for strength...Really glad that the adults have made a firm commitment to training and mentoring the younger ones...i can imagine all the frustrations that the present committee must've gone thru, figuring out just how to run the YF on practically their own after being assigned the leadership positions...maybe it's just me, but i kinda felt that they had been just dumped with alot of these work...still...all things work out for those who love Him =) Amen!
who am i?
People call me:Simon
i was born: Sept 1981
so i am: 24yrs old
mental torture @: SMU
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