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Monday, October 03, 2005
10:28 AM
Youth Fellowship....i have been trying to phase myself out of the YF since the beginning of the year...prob cos i'm too old for that age segment and ought to move on... dunno if it's cos i've been ignorant all this while or issit that things have changed.... but from what i've heard and perceived..it seems that the Fellowship element has been sorely missing... was at Reuben's house yday, playing Winning Eleven with some of the other guys....was alright and all...with the idiotic talk and jibing that i've come to accept as a norm with the YF nowadays... was quite shocked and frankly, disappointed in how some of the guys behaved...Reuben's mum was nice enough to tell us that there's some snacks that we cld take if we wanted...that was ok...but nv expected the guys to just wolf down the tidbits like there's no tmr...ok...so maybe i'm judging..and mabbe they just really feel at home..but still, i believe there shd be a fair amt of decorum that shd be observed....don't know if i'm too sensitive or what, but Reuben's mum didn't seem too happy later on...who could blame her? she probably thinks we are just a bunch of parasites man... while playing with Charles, he brought up something that he's noticed abt the YF...he has been attending another church so his views on how the YF have changed is probably the most fair one... He commented on how (us guys especially) seemed to just talk rubbish with each other, and provoked each other in our conversation....he only said that much...but i cldn't help but agree with him...i mean...the level of 'fellowship' that we have nowadays is really more like army 'fellowship' than anything...and that is DEFINITELY not a good thing... how could a bunch of ppl, gg to church every week, serving in church even, not act in a Christian-like way? surely this is a sign of spiritual warfare at play! i sat in on the cell-group leaders' meeting yday....and Jietsie acutally commented on how there was a need for a cell group for CGLs too...that they're giving output but no input for them... Thinking back, i think she'd really raised a very good point, cos, when i look at some of the CGLs or senior youths, they seem to be wayward in their behavior....sure...some can say that how they behave and how they think are 2 different things...and it's only how they think that matters cos God knows...but to that, i wld counter...aren't we to offer our lives as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to His name? and aren't our behaviors a manifestation of our thought life? on a personal note...i've always been one to believe that i dun want to live a 'boring' Christian life...i'm nv gg to be the kind of totally nice guy....cos, frankly, i believe that God has laid His commands not to restrict us, but to leave us free from worries as to what is good or bad! i strongly believe that He created us on earth not just to worship Him but also to enjoy His wonderful creations! But while that means we shdn't have to be boorish, negative ppl, we still have to watch our behavior that it shdn't be against His Word. We are meant to be the light of the world and not to BE of the world.....with so many media influences and all ard us...it's so easy to be caught in the negativity of it all...must confess that i've been caught in this web of deceit many many times over and that my speech is one of the biggest problems that i'm yet to overcome in my spiritual warfare...but i believe that i'm still striving on...weak, but still running the race.... there is a brother in the YF whom i feel a burden for right now...he'd been a really strong Christian in the years past and has always been very faithful in serving...but after gg into army, it seems that all the negativity has overcome him and it seems like he's given up the race altogether...perhaps its a phase of life that God has allowed him to go thru to truly understand His will...but yet, it's very disconcerting to see him so defeated....during my time in the army, i must admit that i suffered from the same issue, where i was so disillusioned by how the army worked and the ppl inside. I still believe that army is a really sucky place...but it was during my time inside that i found God again..that i felt closer to Him then before...i truly wish the same wld happen for this brother of mine soon...that he may find peace in our Provider and our Peace....
please do pray for both the YF and this brother of mine....
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People call me:Simon
i was born: Sept 1981
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